My Next Play: An On My Own Novel by Carrie Ann Ryan

Author:Carrie Ann Ryan [Ryan, Carrie Ann]
Language: eng
Format: epub

Chapter 11

Miles

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It was amazing how quickly life could change when you weren’t ready for it. I lay on the bed, Nessa’s knees pressed tightly against my hips, and groaned as she nibbled on my lip.

“This is the best study break ever,” she said, grinning, and I leaned back, my hands cradling my head. While I knew I would have rather had them on Nessa, I knew we were both doing our best not to move too quickly. After all, we had said that this wouldn’t be forever and that we wanted to maintain our friendship. Sex would change things. That meant the more I touched her, the harder it would be—in every meaning of that phrase.

She rubbed herself against me, and I sucked in a breath, closing my eyes. “You better stop doing that,” I said.

She stiffened, a single brow raised. “If I keep going, would it be too much or not enough?”

I rolled my eyes before I turned us both over.

She let out a squeal. “Hey.” Now, we were lying side by side, her leg draped over mine as I brushed her hair away from her face. I did my best not to think about what it meant. We were friends, and while I knew she wasn’t using me to get over Pacey or even to get over the fear of what had happened with Xander, this still didn’t feel real.

One minute, I was pining and pretending that I was okay. The next, she was in my arms, and I wasn’t quite sure how that had happened. I needed to stop thinking so hard.

I leaned forward, kissed her on the forehead, and then sat up, draping my arms over my knees as I let out a deep breath.

“Too much, then?” she asked before sitting up next to me. She pressed her leg to mine, but she didn’t touch me other than that. It was getting harder to be around her without wanting more. And I didn’t mean sex. Sex would be easy between us. I knew that much and figured we would find that out shortly. No, it was everything else that came from it.

Nessa was still worried about school, and we only had a few more days to figure out her plan with that. Then there was grad school for both of us and everything else surrounding those significant decisions. A relationship would get in the way, and I knew that. She knew that. We had been very clear about that. And yet, here we were, our books next to us as we rolled around on my bed, making out and pretending the world wasn’t on fire.

“I think we should probably get back to studying.”

“We’re almost done with my stats homework.” She nudged me with her shoulder.

I looked over at her, my lips quirking into a grin. “You’re getting better at it.”

“I feel like I need to help you study or something. But you’ve already finished with your English courses, and you got As in those.”

I shrugged, my cheeks heating.

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